im giving up cuz of 2 reasons .
tired or trying .
sick of crying .
yeah , im smiling ,
but inside im dying ..

Nessa<3 7:53 AM

damn...psle coming soon.gotta concentrate.too much hw.too much tuition.too much activities stress.my damn life juz bout hw.i mean like wtf seriously.thn now,my mum.hw ask me do so much.wanna buy a bag tht i like thn must say so much.in the end still cnnt.not like evrytime also wanna buy bag right?-.- thn i will envy almost ervy1 w/ the bag.thn my habit of sulking starts again.when i sulk you scold wtf.but anw,i still like sulking.i sulk to my friends too but they cheer me up which is much much better thn getting scolded by you.and now,him.i realy like him really.but anw,he rejected me,so wut can i do?haishh life is hard.FML.but still life gotta carry on.but i will still love and miss him like before..haishh..anw,thts all for tday bye.

Nessa<3 1:14 AM

Wow.first time in my life.REJECTION wow..i mean seriously...wtf..juz cuz im too young.wth wrong is wif being young?im not young !i told you its not gonna be the same anymore.should i do it?forget all our pasts and carry on wif my life?stop it damn it.seriously you're making me feel bad.im serious.fine ! i noe im young okay ! ive had enough.enough is enough no more tears for you.i have given up.i screwed up this perfect life of mine.now,its juz rubbish.im nvr gonna be the same again.feels like a knife through my heart,you dun know how it feels like.leave me alone.you dun noe me.im always young to evry1 .how i hate this 4 words:you are too young.thx for the good times and for happy memories.thx for making me smile when im down but its all gonna be over now.this damn life of mine.i screwed evrything.its not your fault.its all my fault.if i didnt tell you bout it perhaps things would turn out better.anw,wut is done is done.i cant turn back time now but i can hope for the best.haishh...hope thth wuts to come is the best..im on9 in facebook right now and i can see tht you are on9 too.i noe you are yearning to chat w/ me but scared tht i might be sad.i noe how you feel.i understand you.but you dun understand me.this feeling hurts.nomatter wut happens,my heart will still be w.you.although im rejected by you,i still wont change this feeling of mine for you . now you off9 lerh,haishh..i juz wanna tell you : ily..

Nessa<3 8:14 AM

yes , yes.you are good but im better thn you.im me,i wont change for you.not anymore.i ve learnt tht you re no worth my time.im glad i realise it.no more tears for you.im gonna live my life like how it should be.i found some1 wayy better thn you.you re a jerk.not worth my time.no..not anymore.enough is enough.its time to move on in live.i ve given its all too late now if you wanna let time rewind.this time , im serious.you blew the changes.its time to let go .to forget bout our past.if i could wish for 1 thing,i'll wish tht i've neh met you.you ruined my life.made me waste time on you.made me teared for you.wo dui ni yi jin si le xin.forget bout it.live your life like you've neh met me and i will too.i do not need you anymore neither would you need me.give up okay.its the best.and im glad im running away,away from all this but not to no one.im running to some one but not you.not anymore.quotes tell us not to give up but sometimes we also gotta think of how much time we've wasted.quotes tell us tht when we feel the urge to give up , we have to think bout the reason why we held on so long and my reason is cuz' im so foolish to think tht its you. but i realised who it rlly was.who cared for me.

Nessa<3 12:21 AM

i dun think this will work out..i give up..i want to..but i cant cuz of this damned feeling i have in me is taking a toll on me.not my fault.difficult you noe?you dun even understand me.you start becoming so cold towards me.neh txt me anymore...thn last time still so sweet.thn now eh?found another prettier girl rite?i cant believe you're this kinda person.so diff.to give up on you.i cried cuz of you.shed many tears for you...but it seems like you dun appreciate it at all...i cnnt do anything but cry.my life is difficult.its difficult for me to can only love you secretly.i dun dare to make it known to you cuz i scred you noe alr thn ltr we cnnt even be friends.neh mind..haishh...tht it for tht thing.btw today i had napha walau eh.almost fail the bloody standing broad jump sia...pissed.idiot ! only pass by 8 cm bullshit -.- thn the teacher neh help lorh.so embarrassing seyy.i did in total 4 tries.then first 2 tries i fail.haishh thts the effect of thinking bout him too much..walau..nehmind..my love is unrequited..

Nessa<3 7:59 AM

exam was fine..easy...tht gd..but when gg hme today say the stupid ppl ther im like wtf ! thn they keep guai lan me sia...walau A ....then i ask thm shuttup thn i go hme lorh..i check my blog thn saw...okay nvm..dw say v.pai sey sia...i damn diee liao lorh.now dk how to face him liao ehh maybe cnnt even txt him liao eh...sobbs...why life so diificult?..i hate myself sia...kp luhh !i dunnp how to face ppl liao ehh !!...seriously...whyy ????hatedieemyself !!not suppose to see 1 lehh !!how come??okay..i wanna give up .....tears rolled down at the tote of not being able to even txt...i give up..i wanna give up sia....yuan lai ni shi zhen de yi jing li kai wo...wo de yan lei jiu xiang xia luo....wo xiang yao fang qi lerh...sui zhe shi jian wo de yan lei liu de yue lai yue duo...luo xia le wo de lian..diao luo zai di shang...tian kong tu ran yi pian hei an,yuan lai ni shi zhen de yong yuan li kai wo...anw bout sch now,leona go yyuan wang be of wut de dk bout tim tht thing sia walau..thn smre they go put the dominic book on my table lehh ! ask thm go die luhh eff thm luhh..bloody asses...-.- -'- argg 1 worst day eva..

Nessa<3 12:06 AM

sry ppl,for not blogging for a long time.well,i was rlly busy wif preparations for exam and stuff like tht,so i didnt rlly blog.well,im back now..woah,lots of thing happened plus times rlly passes fast.seconds ticked into minutes.minutes ticked into hours.hours ticked into day.days tinked into months.PSLE is getting nearer and nearer as the days pass.so now,concentratin on PSLE.but thn,my mind still filles wif images of him.i rmb,ytd,i think,i was sitting on the sofa and suddenly images of me and hhim flasked through my mind.i started to riminsce the times we had together .playing together..we didnt rlly realise it was love..but now,i finally realise.evrything suddenly became so clear to me..he told me he like me.but he didnt say he love me.to him,love and like are 2 total diff.things.but to me,its the same..i cant live wothout him.i convinced myself hes juz a crush and the feeling would fade a few weeks ltr.but uup to now,its been months and yet,the feeling has not fade.i do not noe wut to do...you dun even understand my silence,how to understand my words?i try to communicate wif you more,but you juz turned it down by ignoreing my msges...i seriously am at a lost.wut you expect me to do?i cant go on breaking my comp juz to see you rite?futher more,you dun take the first step by going out wif me.how am i suppose to express myself?if you juz like me as a friend,pls make it clear to me.idw to misunderstand thn get false hope and it'll be like all my fault.pls..you should noe how i feel.i made it quiet clear to you are.its your turn to make the frist move.i've done mine.now,its your turn..haishh.
anw,thx ppl for lending an ear to me to pour out my feeling and stuff.i thank you all alot.
sincerely,NESSA

Nessa<3 9:28 AM